I thought it took a long time,but today I felt inspired...

When you disappear for a while, it tends to have something to do with being stuck in a rut. Maybe there is a problem that you need to curl away to a safe place and have a real good think about much value this situation has?

I won't say I have been hiding, because I haven't. 26th February was a while ago now, and part of me thinks that the space of time from then to now should have been filled and there were opportunities where it could have been, but I wasn't inspired to write. Inspiration has brought me here to today.

People say that inspiration can just come from the mind of any area of subject but I feel the power of inspiration can not just come from within yourself but subconscious help from another person and the help of magic of the Arts. I suppose that Sciences and Philosophy could blossom into inspiration but that is not important to me. I am a creative soul. I breathe the art of song, the lyrics are my conversation, my feelings and self expression, dance is my ability to move and discover the world and photography is my escape for the yearning of freedom and independence that I significantly need to feel a balance in myself. Without these elements I would feel claustrophobic, suffocated and lost. I would feel no purpose.

I feel like I have been floating, drifting in and out of possible inspiration, getting me close to my dream of being a Photographer. This has been since February. Now, finished with college and I can really begin with my future orientated way approach to life because the future is now. I was getting down and being a recluse to the world because I just wanted to get somewhere. All I would do on my blog posts would be complain that I wasn't inspired and that was the only reason I had something to write about, because I had done nothing. I wanted to be ready for university with some inspiration to believe I had something to work on a head start. I had no subject. I had no focus. Back in January in my second interview at The University of West London there was no story about the pieces of photography I had put in. "They were experimental", I would say to pretty much each one, but what got me a conditional offer was my passion and determination in this subject even though they thought I wasn't up to scratch. But seriously?! I have to start somewhere, I'm not going to be amazing just yet. Just decent enough.

I want to work with people in my Photography career. To capture couples special wedding day, family portraits and do tasks for people because I enjoy it so much. I hadn't yet come across anyone who was interested in having their photo done so I stuck to the silence of nature and landscapes and the natural patience nature has was a good beginner. Imagine trying to take a picture of someone and they get all hot headed about things because the photographer is still working out how to use the more complex techniques with the camera. I'm getting there, still a little intimidated by the flicks and switches but I'm building some strength up and saying I can do this.

I went to Devon again over the last week and took some landscape pictures but not many - I wasn't inspired. I had already uploaded the last visit to Flickr and created a blog post but when I got back I had a task at hand; To edit some photos, and this is where my inspiration and drive for photography recovered. A good friend of mine is another creative soul with deep interest and aspiration into the Performing Arts. One the many passions of his; to model has taken me by storm to use my freedom and self expressive imagination to create a scenes of what I like to think is the concept of an idealist coming to life. Fantasy and out of this world situations that a viewer can look for a few moments and connect with the thoughts and mind of the artist. And I have been inspired. So thank you.

A photo can be anything. But all photos, no matter how busy the scene is they are still blank canvases and it is rare that once they are taken they are complete. The photos in magazines and photographers portfolios and so on are enhanced. Mostly because, to me the orginal photo is the surface but the deeper you go with enhancing the more you find what the image is trying to say. I seemed to find that when editing these photos and helping someone achieve their own goals makes feel a whole world of good too. I am not taking full credit for these photos because I didn't take them I would say it would be more of a 25% editing and 75% the original composition.

I feel secure in saying my Photography journey can now continue to an ever better future...

Want to visit my Flickr photostream with the featured photos in my blog and more then click the following link: http://www.flickr.com/photos/brown_eyed_dreamer/

My first Photographers Assistant job....

It's disturbing how in life we all have many aspirations or general things that we want to do. Half the time when we think about these things we are either at work/school/college and we don't have the time to do it. Eventually when we do have some free time on our hands we would rather just slouch on the sofa,watching tv or playing on the internet. I live on the internet, I really do. Google is just so useful its all I need sometimes, but there is a world out there. We don't want to be cooped up inside all the time, we have our lives to live.
Sometimes we get a lucky break in life and it finally opens the door to what we really want to do.
The photography is going well so far. Stuart has contacted my family about some work that he would like some help with. Despite the fact I was in an exam when he called. I have no contacted him by email agreeing that I accept this offer. It is a wedding, so my Mum told me and it will be my first one. Of course nothing much will happen, I am there to assist, not to run the photography shoot. The event will be this Friday so it is very short notice, but I'm excited. I never thought so quick that I would be able to start work in just under a year of deciding that I wanted to become a Wedding Photographer, but who's complaining.
I know I mentioned in my last post about my work experience actually starting in May, which then would have been a year since my dream was born. It was a pleasant surprise to know that I will get paid for working on this Wedding Shoot, when originally I wouldn't start getting paid until another year or so. I am very very happy. Hopefully I won't mess up and the experience will help me on my way.
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Want to visit my Flickr photostream with the featured photos in my blog and more then click the following link: http://www.flickr.com/photos/brown_eyed_dreamer/

Introduction - Photography Aspirations

Every photographer starts of small, even if their dream and aspiration feels like the size of the world. Patience is the key. Whether there is more well known as you or a famous photographer you aspire to be like; they started off small once.

At the moment I am starting off small. My idea for a photography career only started a few months ago in May at my cousins wedding. I loved the idea for meeting new people and capturing their special day for the newlyweds.

In June 2008 a friend introduced me to Flickr. I wasn't looking to get interested in photography, just something to do in my spare time. My early work is pretty random, there isn't really any aim or anything.

I would experiment with editing tools on Picnik and loved the black and white with a touch of colour edit. My first try with that tool was of a flower. It was okay but there was something that just wasn't right. I had another go exactly a month later after I began my Flickr account and got better results, even a group invited me to add my picture to it "Selective Colour award".

I have continued alot with the selective colour photos and seen and felt my improvement along the way. I also love black and white photos and sepia. I find the classic look very inspiring. Flickr and

taking photos has now

beceome a big part of

my life.

So why did i start a blog?

Well I wanted to follow my photography developments to becoming a photographer. It will take a while to become a wedding photographer but I am sure it is worth the wait.

If anyone is a wedding photographer or wants to become one, it would be interesting to see how you got to that point or why you want to become one.